worth.
So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life,
Look at your life through heaven’s eyes.
—Through Heaven’s Eyes (Prince of Egypt).
Okay. So it’s obvious that I’m a weirdo and I watch too many movies, and have so many song lyrics memorized, it’s crazy…and I’m a little ADD…cuz this little tidbit has nothing to do with my title. I digress…
So for a while, I’ve been saying that I’m feeling inadequate—not good enough. Others have said that I’m sensitive. Most don’t even care either way. But a select few say how proud they are of me and are supportive of me in whatever I do. But in listening to this song, and paying attention to the lyrics, it made me realize that I never think about what God would think as He’s looking down on me. In everything I do, I try and give it to God. Whether it’s good or bad, I thank Him, and go to Him for thanksgiving, praise, help, guidance, and comfort.
Lately, despite how hectic my life has been, between church, choir, working at Bath and Body Works, interning for my seester, going to dinner with my other seester and her kiddos, and barely being at home with my family, (there I go again!) I am so thankful for every single one of these things, and the role that I play with each one.
Today would have technically been my first full week of employment at Bath and Body Works. I’ve only officially worked one day, and we had a team meeting on Sunday. Even so, I got a call from one of the managers who asked if I could come to work on Saturday, because the VP of BBW is coming in, and they wanted me to be there because they are impressed by my work ethic, and what good things I’m already bringing to the team.
At church, whether I’m in the nursery playing with the kiddos, or singing with ensemble or choir, I get such positive, uplifting feedback. Whether it’s about how much the kids talk to their parents about me after they leave, and that they can’t wait until next Sunday, or how I “glow” while I’m up there singing.
I am also extremely blessed to be able to work with my seester and her event planning company. I get to work, play, and have fun with someone that I love! How awesome is that? And even though I’ve like bailed on her TWICE, because of everything else that is going on, she is still 100% supportive of me and what I do.
Oh yeah. I’ve also got another seester (who along with the aforementioned seester) who is always there to hear me blabber about what goes on in my life on like an hourly basis via Facebook lol. She, too, is extremely supportive, and funny, and loving, and I am blessed to have her in my life as well.
And, oh yeah…there’s this one guy, who is a very strong Christian, and seems to actually like me (and all my craziness) just for me??…. :)
True, there are other issues going on in my life, but I’m not dwelling on them anymore. I’m focusing on the POSITIVE, and the path that I think God is leading me on. Even though I’m exhausted, I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy in a long time. And truthfully, I don’t think these things would be happening if I didn’t have my faith. It’s all in His timing. So maybe if times get hard, and I start to question my worth, or value, I should start looking at my life through heaven’s eyes.
Did I mention I’m ADD and not the most eloquent of writers? haha
