overwhelmed.
I feel like all of my posts have been negative as of late, but it’s just where I’m at right now. School, work, school, work, work….oh by the way, you should work out because you’re over weight, oh and by the way, you should probably clean you room…the list goes on and on and on. I find it hard to wake up and get out of bed in the mornings, because I have the attitude of “Here we go again…another day,” when really I should be praising God that I’m waking up glad to live another day that He has made. I know I shouldn’t complain, because now, this is life. This is what everyone has to do at some point in their life. But for most, it’s something that they have to do after having grown up in a home. A loving home with a parent, or if you’re lucky, parents that love you and take care of you…not the other way around. So for me, it’s just that…I feel like I never really had that, and so I had to grow up way too fast, and haven’t gotten a chance to catch my breath. But I can’t just stop…I have to keep going.
You know that saying, “blood is thicker than water.” ? This year has proven to me, more than anything, how false that statement is. I’m so sick and tired of the people that are my blood saying that they love me, but not following through with the actions that support that. On the other hand, I have friends, and a new family who truly do love me, whose actions and words support what they say. I feel more comfortable running to them, with anything, than turning to my own flesh and blood. Is there something wrong with that picture? A little. Should I suck it up, stop complaining and just get over it? Maybe… but it’s just bogging me down. Don’t know what to do anymore.
