May 2012
5 posts
6 tags
running ragged.
29 May 2012
Technically, it’s May 30 already, but we’re just gonna glaze over that. Summer is here, but I can’t really sit back, relax, and enjoy. I have to work, work, work. And pretty soon, I’m going to have to throw school in there. And more work. Gas is getting insanely expensive. I feel like I’m living “pay check to pay check.” Thank God I’m...
4 tags
What’s the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with?
Tell me— what does it mean??
I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won’t you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you…but if I come to you, tell me..
Will you stay, or will you run away?
I need you here. I need you here to wipe away my tears.
To kiss...
Did I say every day?? Whoops.
Well obviously, as my lack of blogging would suggest, I haven’t kept up with my “what I’m thankful for” blog thingy. So I’m just going to blog something that I’m thankful for whenever I do end up having time to write :)
28 May 2012
Few of us are able to say that we are fortunate enough to have people in our lives that would jump in front of a bus for us,...
Counting the Blessings.
It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything. Life has been crazy to say the least. I’ve really been dealing with quite a bit lately…but I decided that every day, for the rest of the month, I’m going to list at least one of the many blessings that I have. It’s so easy to just focus on all of the negative…but sometimes you just need to sit back and...
February 2012
2 posts
December 2011
2 posts
November 2011
8 posts
comparison.
I think it’s safe to say that we’ve all dealt with some sort of comparison in our life—whether it’s something as simple as putting two shirts side by side and seeing which one is the better fit, or comparing yourself to a celebrity or someone you admire, we compare things all the time. Comparing is a nice tool we can use to eliminate an option so we can make a final...
worth.
So how can you see what your life is worth Or where your value lies? You can never see through the eyes of man You must look at your life,
Look at your life through heaven’s eyes.
—Through Heaven’s Eyes (Prince of Egypt).
Okay. So it’s obvious that I’m a weirdo and I watch too many movies, and have so many song lyrics memorized, it’s crazy…and...
hopeful.
Alright. So I know my past couple of blogs have been pretty bleak-sounding, I’m not gonna lie. But while I was writing those blogs, I found that I was choosing to dwell on the negative, rather than pause to thank God for the many blessings he grants me with every. single. day. I’m not going to say that what I was (and partially still am) dealing with is easy or meaningless…and...
happy.
:)
I’m just really happy right now. Which is nice, because for the past week or so my blogs have been kind of bleak. But I think today was a prime example of things happening for a reason, and God putting certain people in your life at the right time :)
withholding.
That seems to be happening to me a lot lately.
It seems as though the people who gave me life, who supposedly have “loved me since they first laid their eyes on me” could care less about my well being and safety, let alone my happiness, than someone that I’ve only known for 4 years or less.
It’s this whole feeling of inadequacy again. I’ve tried reconciling with...
introvert vs. extrovert.
According to Miriam Webster, an introvert is someone who is prone to “concentrate or direct upon oneself.” Alternately, an extrovert is someone who is a “gregarious and unreserved person.”
I tend to look at these two words more in terms of how someone tends to recharge. Biologically, I am an only child. I could play by myself for hours and hours and be happy as can be,...
October 2011
13 posts
“A heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by...”
– The Wizard of Oz (via lyndonpugeda)
masquerade.
Well, it’s Halloween eve. I bet your family has done the same thing my family has done—we eat yummy food, pick out candy, carve pumpkins, and get our costumes all set and ready to go for the fun day that lies ahead. This Halloween however, I’ve realized something that I live with every day that I choose to just push aside and not deal with, and I figured I can start to deal with...
People say I'm the life of the party...
Because I tell a joke or two.
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty
Deep inside I’m blue.
So take a good look at my face—
You’ll see my smile looks out of place.
If you look closer it’s easy to trace
The tracks of my tears.
overwhelmed.
I feel like all of my posts have been negative as of late, but it’s just where I’m at right now. School, work, school, work, work….oh by the way, you should work out because you’re over weight, oh and by the way, you should probably clean you room…the list goes on and on and on. I find it hard to wake up and get out of bed in the mornings, because I have the attitude...
Inadequacy.
That’s a feeling that I’ve had for a while now. There are times where I feel like no matter what I do, it’s never quite good enough. Whether it’s a suggestion, encouragement, work….I feel like I always disappoint. So do I just fall under the radar? Keep my mouth shut? I don’t know. But maybe to avoid these feelings of inadequacy, I should just withdraw myself....
mr. know it all
“Mr. Know It All,
Well, you think you know it all
But you don’t know a thing at all
Ain’t it somethin y’all
When somebody tells you something ‘bout you
Think that they know you more than you do
So you take it down, another pill to swallow”
So this song has been playing on the radio quite a bit lately. People have told me things about myself all my...
Getting back in the writing groove....
I’ve found that as I’m getting older, growing up…however you want to think of it, that life only gets harder. Being the person that I am, with the background that I have, I’m very sensitive. It’s just my nature, and it’s the place that I go to when I’m upset, or feel threatened and unloved. Even if my friends are joking with me, and I know it’s only...
wow. almost a year? maybe 2?
It looks like I haven’t done anything on Tumblr for like… 2 years now almost. Wow. I guess I’m still trying to find the point…I’m much too addicted to Facebook. Well, I guess I’ll try and be better about posting fun stuff for you all to look at.
Have a beautiful day everyone :)
“It’s a rule of life: the prettier the girl, the messier the car.”
– Keith Scott, OTH
I MUST BE GORGEOUS ;) AWWW YEEEE.
(via anjelllyfish)
December 2009
1 post
it's been a long time...
30 December 2009
It has been way to long since I’ve done this. I think the last thing I blogged about was that Confederate Flag incident at school. I don’t know, I didn’t check. Anyways, right now I’m sitting here at my sister Leah’s house. Since the last time I’ve written, my boy interest has changed. Big surprise there. I’ve also made new friends, more...
November 2009
3 posts
the thing about westveiw.
anjeladen:
one: HAH. we won. by SEVENTEEN POINTS. :)
October 2009
11 posts
wonderful wednesday.
28 October 2009
My title is rather sarcastic, just saying. I overslept this morning, so my mom had to take me to school. Fun car ride haha. Anyways, so I get to first period, and I was under the impression that I was still giving a presentation this coming Monday. So I raised my hand and asked Mr. Edwards if that was the case and he said “If you would come to class more often, you would...
drama.
26 October 2009
Wow. Okay so we’re in Palm Springs. The trip up was pretty fun, and the down time between arrival and dinner at Red Robin was hysterical. Oh my mehmeh/juhjuh (little sister/ big sister). Haha XD She snorted! She makes me laugh so hard sometimes. I don’t think she realizes. But I love her, so it’s all good. Anyways, since this a public blog, I won’t go into...
is tired.
22 October 2009 (12:02 am)
TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED. TIRED!
True, I am like physically tired. My sleeping habits, as you can see, are quite messed up. But I’m tired. I’m tired of being a burden to my friends. I’m tired of needing to find rides home. I’m...
mecantthinkofone
21 October 2009
I couldn’t think of a clever title, so I put “Me can’t think of one”. Clever enough? Anyhow, today was alright. One of my big sisters wasn’t at school again today, and it makes me sad when she is sick. Cuz there’s not much I can do to make her feel better. But I got to spend some time with my “big little sister” which is good, cuz I...
much better day.
20 October 2009
So today was much better than yesterday. Like I mentioned, my phone died, and my charger was broken. But my brother was once again me savior, and he happened to have a charger that works with my phone. So it’s charging as we speak, and once it hits about 10% battery, life as I knew it will continue to exist. Anyhow, the honor choir music also came in today. So excited. Mixed...
oh. and another thing.
I have some good news, and some bad news. The good news is, I made it into Southern California Vocal Association Honor Choir this year. Whoot~~ I’m a Soprano II in Mixed Choir. The bad news? Well, we have an 8 hour long rehearsal on Saturday, and the SCVA people (aka Tammi Alderman o.O) think we all have our music, and that we should have been practicing “at least 20 minutes a...
mucky monday.
19 October 2009
So today was alright. I mean, I’ve most definitely had better days, but eh. Mondays are never great for me. I like sleep way too much to get up at 5:15 AM every day when school starts at 7:23 AM. Anyways, so let’s see. APUSH- boring. Chem- SHOOT ME!!! Choir - ♥ Human Bio - “Now, again” (I think Ms. Naughton says “again” literally 15 times in one...
my first tumblr blog.
18 October 2009
I wasn’t sure if I needed to put the date on here or not, so if it’s on there twice, just deal with it. So today was kind of a bummer. I got hit in the face a couple times for not putting the shower cap away. But I’m used to that kind of thing by now. But on the bright side, I got KFC for dinner! =D Anyhow, yesterday I went to the Haunted Trails in Balboa Park...
